Tra due giorni avrò il TOEFL.
No, non mi sono preparato per un cazzo.
Sì, so che è un esame cazzutissimo e che negli anni è diventato sempre più cazzuto specie per chi come il sottoscritto deve passarlo con almeno 100.
Sì, ho preso i manuali e i CD per le esercitazioni e...nel fare il tutorial della parte writing, alla consegna che suonava una cosa tipo "Write about a person in history you would like to meet and specify the reasons behind your choice", io ho risposto narrando il mio mitico incontro con Ian Curtis, che è un tale misto di venerazione e patetico melodramma, che ho voluto copiaincollarlo qui affinchè rimanga in bella vista per i posteri.
Che casomai avessi un punteggio di merda almeno mi consolerei dicendomi che un tuttorial almeno è stato diverente.
"I guess everyone in his own life has at least once wanted to meet a specific historical charachter or a person whose fame has spread across the centuries until now.
If I have to choose just one person, I would like to meet Ian Curtis, who is the lead singer of the British New Wave band Joy Division.
This choice is explainable not only according to the fact that I'm long time fan of that band or that I consider Ian Curtis one of the few songwriter whose poethic lyrics actually deserve to be read.
On the contrary, the main reason that would push me to meet him his just because the twisted and controvhersial personality he showed during his life has always intrigued me.
Ian Curtis in fact enjoyed a really short successful life, since he decided to commit sucide at the age of 24 years old, presumably due to his life long depression and existential angst.
The fact that such a brillian young mind, able to conceive astonishing verses who percectly explain the misery and the mourning feelings we all sometimes pass through in our everyday life, has decided to suddendly end with his career, with is rising fame and above all with his newly married wife and his little daighter, has always been perceived by me as one of the greatest lost in music history.
Hence I would like to meet him primarilly just to know him, just to be aware of what kind of man actually was concealed behind the public face he showed to his fans. I would be also so curious to talk to him about his life, to ask him what kind of anxiety, of loss suffered has lead him to compose such beutiful and immortal verses. Why he mad ethe decision to marry and to have a daughter if he really thounght that life wasn't worth to be fully lived. In other words, what really lies behind the lyrics of the song "Love will tear us apart".
Then, in a vaguely presumptuos attempt, I would think about me persuading him to hold on, to look at the success and the praises he had achieved and then to take a glance even at the brightest side of life, even when it seems to want us only to look a the darkest. After all, that moody genius would be two years younger than the ordinary man I am.
But in the end, if I think about such an encounter, I would conclude that it wouldn't be fair even if I were able to persuade Ian Curtis not to commit suicide. Because even if his young life prematurely finished could be on a rational basis defined a tragedy, it's thanks to such a sudden departure that his myth is born, once and for all.
Then, I come to understand that I would have no right to influence such a piece of music history, just like no single man has the right to deal with a living legend."
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